Family (RIP CURTY!)

This past weekend I have realized how much my family REALLY means to me. We had the opportunity to go to pine view as a family. It was SO much fun, we had the wave runners, all the beach toys, everything. We were having such a good time. Well Friday afternoon we get a text saying my cousin Curtis was taken to the hospital due to drug overdose, he was unresponsive and it wasn't looking good for him. We all figured if anybody can pull through its Curt, he's the strongest person we know. Well Saturday we get news that he isn't going to wake up and to go say our goodbyes. my mom decided it'd be best not to let me see him like that so her and Brandon just ran up. I still thought MAYBE he'd wake up, I was praying "Keep fighting Curt, You can beat this!" Around 720 last night we got the call we'd all been hoping against. "Curtis died about 20 minutes ago." I immediately lost it, Nick ran over and wrapped his arms around me. It still doesn't seem real. Than we find out it was intentional. SUICIDE?! He's got two kids. He wouldn't do that! (I'm still in denial) I'm not gonna lie and say me and Curt were best friends. But i do have a lot of memories with him. I remember on his wedding day he came up to me and said "You need to start carrying around a baseball bat or there are gonna be guys all over you" He always knew when I was having a bad day and he'd wrap me in his arms and just hug me. I loved him so much, I REALLY hope he knew that. I looked up to him SO much. He was 24 years old and leaves behind 2 year old twins. Rest in Peace Curty, You were loved more than you know!

Happiness is...

Having an amazing family.

Having the Gospel in my life.
Being able to take the sacrament every week.
Repentance.
Moving on.
Having the most incredible man I've ever met as my boyfriend.
Having some of the best friends in the world.
Being in Nicks arms.
Being in Gunnison, together. Being able to relax with him alone....
Having everything go right for the first time. *Knock on wood*
Having to stop in the middle of a kiss cause you cant help but smile...
Having the best big sister in the world. The one person I can look up to no matter what. I don't think she's ever done anything wrong. We have our moments where were at each others throats, but I've never been closer to another person. I love her SO stinking much. She's my hero. My rock.

Pink hair, And MORE!

I HAVE PINK HAIR! LOL

I've been trying to think of something exciting to blog about. But I got nothin. lol. My life is really boring. I turned 20 on the 28th of June. Im still working at intermountain going on a year and a half now. Time flies when your having fun.. I start school august 18th. Im taking medical terminology. WAY excited and nervous at the same time. I spend most of my time with Rach and Casey (which probably annoys them to no end) because they are my bestest friends :) Casey does this thing where one second he act like a big brother (protective, and teasing) and the next second he just acts like a friend. Hes such a good example to me. Rachel always knows when I need a hug or a phone call. Its like ESP or something ;). She's my best friend and my hero. She's always been my cheerleader. Always on the sidelines, even if she thinks its a mistake and im gonna faceplant. She's there with a shoulder to cry on. Jarron has also been my shoulder lately. I was having a very rough night and needed some guidance. Jarron and Casey gave me a blessing becuase my daddy was asleep. One of my favorite things about Jarrons blessings (and caseys) Is that they are SO in tune with the spirit. They don't say what I want to hear. They say what I NEED to hear. So we went into Jarrons bedroom and they both laid there hands on my head. I immediately started crying no out of sadness, but because of the comfort I immediately felt. I thought I had strayed to far away from the spirit, that I had messed up too much and He just wasn't gonna try anymore. I was so wrong. It was the most beautiful blessing i've ever had. I am SO blessed to have such a wonderful support system. I love my family :)