Blessed....

Its been a month or so since i've blogged. And i figure what better thing to blog about than my blessings? I have so many things to be thankful for. Its unbelievable. Somedays I sit and think about how hard i have it. Work, school, bills. Than I realize, this is LIFE. My aunt Connie recently brought a very good quote to my attention "Life is what you make it, always has been, always will be." It's SO true. You can sit there and think of everything thats wrong in your life. For example My cousin Curtis recently passed away. I can sit here and dwell on how much I miss him and how horrible it would be for his kids to grow up with out him. Or i can be happy because I have the knowledge that families are forever. I can sit here and try to figure out how to pay all my bills and still be able to shop, or i can pay my tithing and KNOW that everything will work out. I have been blessed with SO Many wonderful things because of the opportunity I have to have the gospel in my life. It truly is incredible. I have the coolest family(and future inlaws) on the planet. I have the best boyfriend in the whole world. He is SO good to me. He makes me feel like a queen. I definitely dont deserve him.(not to mention he's SMOKING hot!!) I have developed close relationships with people in my family that I NEVER thought would happen. Jaynee is probably one of my best friends in the world. She knows everything there is to know about me, and still puts up with me ;). She's far stronger and more beautiful than she'll ever believe. She's stunning. And the boys are lining up for her. She's smart as can be, and HILARIOUS. She's also my girlfriend.(inside joke). Something my Dad always told us growing up is "Your siblings are going to be your best friends someday" Me and Rachel would Scowl and vow that would never happen. Now when i go even one day without seeing her its hard! And her husband is one of my best friends, Nick reminds me of him in alot of ways, which is a good thing. I've always wanted my husband to be like Casey.
I have a job in this HORRIBLE economy. I sit there all day and think about how boring my job is and how much I'd rather be with my friends. When I really should be thinking about how awesome it is to actually have a job, when there are SO many people who dont.
I just can NOT get over how amazing the gospel is. Last night my cousin Calvin got his song recorded from Curts funeral its the most beautiful song EVER. We were all bawling. Mikayla was struggling the hardest and my Gramma wasn't helping, she just kept saying he's gone forever. I didnt know what to say. She KNOWS better than that. I had no idea what to do so I just went and held Mikayla. So all the sudden while I was holding her all these words started coming out of my mouth. I dont remember my exact words. I remember my Grandma saying "His kids don't have a dad" With out thinking I said " Mikayla how lucky are they to get to have there daddy as there own personal guardian angel" She smiled a little bit and I went on to tell her how much he loved her. I personally think Curtis was in that room. I FELT his arms go around both me and Mikayla and I could just feel his spirit there. The knowledge of the gospel doesn't make the pain go away by any means, it just makes it more bearable. Knowing he's with us every second of every day. It makes me want to strive to become a better person, so I'm worthy to be with Curty again. I miss him....

Its been a while :)

I haven't blogged forever, not much to Blog about really. I work, I started school yesterday. I think i'm really gonna like this class. Not a lot of work. Just ALOT of reading. Its for Human Development (Psychology 1100) and I really like alot of the girls in there. It just seems like we all get along really well. I start Medical Terminology on monday. I hope I know some people in there. OH the highlight of my week? I came home from work on tuesday to a dozen roses from Nick. He's perfect. We've never been happier. I can't wait to marry him. This week is a crappy one for us because he has the USANA convention down town ( Right by my work, yet we still dont get to see eachother) So I havent seen him since my softball game Tuesday night,more on that later. I didnt get to see him yesterday cause I had school til like 10. I dont get to see him today cause he works til 10. Its pretty hard. Much harder than I thought. I miss him :(

I'm playing softball again. It feels SO good to start moving around and getting back in shape. I VOLUNTEERED to play right field, cause I dont want the ball to come to me! And I haven't struck out yet :) GO US! lol. We won the first game by about 20 points and the second one we won 22-5. Its SO much more fun when you dont have the stress of planning practices, and you actually win. My favorite part is that Rachy is playing. She's so fun. I love that girl to pieces :)

Dredg and As tall as lions.

Last night I went to my first concert. We went and saw Dredg, and as tall as lions. Its was SO much fun. I felt a little out of place at the beginning but it got better through the night. Im definitely converted to there music. Best band to lose your concert virginity to for sure :)

Happy :)

Im still happy! LOL Nick and I celebrated one month on Tuesday, and I've never been happier. I know alot of people think that were crazy for already thinking about marriage. But honestly? It doesnt scare me :) I just feel like I've known him FOREVER. And my response to everyone who thinks were moving too fast "If you know something is right, why wait any longer?" I've never been more sure about anything in my life! I love him SOO much!

So in other news thats not all mushy, i get to babysit Indie tomorrow. She's 6 months old and I am WAY excited. Than Nick and I are going to the fair with my familia. What a fun weekend:) Than on Sunday Nick is helping bless his little cousin, so i'm going to church with him. I love it :)

Too good to be true?

Have you ever had one of those days when you think "Somethings gotta be going on, my life is WAY too good right now." Well today is one of those days. Everything seems to be going my way. I've NEVER been happier in my whole entire life. I know that 99.9 percent,if not 100, of that is because of Nick. He is everything to me. I look forward to spending the rest of forever with him.He told me last night that he wanted to be engaged within 6 months, than he texted me and said 6 months is WAY too long to wait. LOL. So it looks like it'll be sooner than later that I'll be Mrs. Weight ;). I sure cant wait to start this Journey with him. Forever wont be long enough!

Family (RIP CURTY!)

This past weekend I have realized how much my family REALLY means to me. We had the opportunity to go to pine view as a family. It was SO much fun, we had the wave runners, all the beach toys, everything. We were having such a good time. Well Friday afternoon we get a text saying my cousin Curtis was taken to the hospital due to drug overdose, he was unresponsive and it wasn't looking good for him. We all figured if anybody can pull through its Curt, he's the strongest person we know. Well Saturday we get news that he isn't going to wake up and to go say our goodbyes. my mom decided it'd be best not to let me see him like that so her and Brandon just ran up. I still thought MAYBE he'd wake up, I was praying "Keep fighting Curt, You can beat this!" Around 720 last night we got the call we'd all been hoping against. "Curtis died about 20 minutes ago." I immediately lost it, Nick ran over and wrapped his arms around me. It still doesn't seem real. Than we find out it was intentional. SUICIDE?! He's got two kids. He wouldn't do that! (I'm still in denial) I'm not gonna lie and say me and Curt were best friends. But i do have a lot of memories with him. I remember on his wedding day he came up to me and said "You need to start carrying around a baseball bat or there are gonna be guys all over you" He always knew when I was having a bad day and he'd wrap me in his arms and just hug me. I loved him so much, I REALLY hope he knew that. I looked up to him SO much. He was 24 years old and leaves behind 2 year old twins. Rest in Peace Curty, You were loved more than you know!

Happiness is...

Having an amazing family.

Having the Gospel in my life.
Being able to take the sacrament every week.
Repentance.
Moving on.
Having the most incredible man I've ever met as my boyfriend.
Having some of the best friends in the world.
Being in Nicks arms.
Being in Gunnison, together. Being able to relax with him alone....
Having everything go right for the first time. *Knock on wood*
Having to stop in the middle of a kiss cause you cant help but smile...
Having the best big sister in the world. The one person I can look up to no matter what. I don't think she's ever done anything wrong. We have our moments where were at each others throats, but I've never been closer to another person. I love her SO stinking much. She's my hero. My rock.