When?

When did I become the girl that lets some stupid guy affect her?? I have been so good and happy lately. Than yesterday a guy at my work, Jim, asked me if I had an old cell phone I could sell him. Any of you that know me know that I go through cell phones faster than you can change your underwear :). So I went home and put my sim card into an old cell phone so I can delete all the old stuff off it to sell him. I went in to the messages and there was like 100 from Matt. The cute ones he used to send me that I saved. Telling me he loves me and I'm the best thing ever to happen to him. That didnt really affect me too much I just deleted them. Than I got to the pictures... There were a few of some old friends. Than there were a few of me and matt together. We both looked soo happy together! What happened? The one that kills me is the one of Matt and Jaylon, his nephew, together. I miss his nephew SO much. He was such a sweetheart. It took everything I had to get me to delete those pictures. I was almost in tears. I'm stronger than this. I know I just need to move on. But how do you move on from the one thing you have always wanted?