Its Christmas time AGAIN.

Christmas is in 2 days, and it doesnt feel like Christmas to me. This year has been the hardest year for me. As excited I am to get married, im having a lot of "lasts" this year. My last Thanksgiving living at home. My last Christmas at home. My last New Years at home. Im sure we will still be at my house for Christmas. But waking up and opening gifts with my parents in the morning used to be my favorite thing! I guess its all part of growing up. I am SUPER excited to get married. Don't get me wrong. I have NEVER questioned this decision. Its just a HUGE step. Its terrifying for me to think that at this time next year, I will be in my own house with my hubby. No parents. No siblings. Its so crazy to think of myself as that grown up.
I hope everyone has a VERY Merry Christmas, and a prosperous new year. I love you guys! :)

Baby hungry!

So last night I watched Rachel and TJ's baby. He is such a doll. He's about 5 months old. We had a wedding to go to and everybody told me and Nick how cute our baby is. It made me realize how badly I want to be a mom. And Nick was ADORABLE with him. I wish I would've got a picture. He's gonna be a great dad. And Im the luckiest girl in the world to be able to marry him :). And as bad as I want a baby right now, I know that if I wait until we are both done with school it will make things easier on us as a family. My time will come. Until then... I'll be watching this lil cutie....

Tydus James Obrien...

The temple letter!

So we got our letter from the temple. We moved the date up to April 9th 2010. We are both SO excited. Opening this letter brought SO many emotions. Excitement : I cant wait to spend forever with him. Doubt : Is this REALLY happening to me? Am I worthy of this? Do I deserve this? Nervous: What do I do? What should I expect? What if, when we get married, he realizes im not as great as he claims I am? But most importantly, I felt peace. There has NEVER been a doubt in my mind that Nick is the person I am meant to spend eternity with. He takes care of me. He loves me. He makes me SO happy its unreal. Sometimes I feel like I need to pinch myself to wake up from this fairytale. I can't wait to start a family with him. He is SO good with his nephew, Xander. I can tell he is gonna be a great dad. He makes me want to be a better person. To STRIVE to live the Gospel so I can be his eternal companion. I can't imagine my life without him. He is my world. My life.