Kenny Chesney Put It Best...

Inside, I built a wall So high around my heart, I thought I'd never fall One touch, you brought it down The bricks of my defenses scattered on the ground And I swore to me I wasn't gonna love again The last time was the last time I let someone in!

I've had ALOT of time to think and decide what I want in my life lately. I have been around a few more guys and realized that not ALL guys are total jerks. I just seem to find the ones that are ;). I've realized that some guys will do ANYTHING to make a girl happy. I also realized that most guys DO just want sex. They can't help it. Lol. But there are a few guys out there that CAN wait for it too. I've been really happy lately. I've realized what I need to be doing right now is putting all my effort into work and school... Than if I have time to date I will. Another song that I really like is called fifteen by Taylor Swift. It talks about how when your 15 years old and someone tells you they love you you believe them. And how you have NO worries. Than she says "Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realized some bigger dreams of mine! Abigail gave everything she had to a boy who changed his mind!" I've been in that position! I gave EVERYTHING to him.Probably not the everything your thinking. But close! Than he changed his mind. I really did think I would marry him someday. Everything just felt right. And I am SO grateful everyday that he changed his mind. Because now I can make my own dream of becoming a nurse come true. Than I will worry about finding someone to spend forever with. Right now i'm chasing my dreams and I couldn't be Happier :)