So....

The other day, Matthew texted me. At first all sorts of emotions ran through me. Anger, Sadness, Happiness. I really wanted to text him back! I thought I was gonna give in, I thought I wasn't strong enough, I thought...WRONG! After I had a talk with Rachel(Thanks Rach) I realized, I dont need him. The only thing he would do was make me trust him again and hurt me again, and its not worth it. SO I ignored the text. An hour later comes another one "I know you're reading my messages. Text me back." I just laughed and deleted it. I wanted him to text me for SO long and I knew if he did things had a chance of going back to normal. Than I talked to my mom who has learned from experience "Some people never change, you can't change them, they have to want it" And he doesnt. So that made it easier. And the fact that its now MY choice that were not talking. If I decide to talk to him, he will talk to me. So after the 2nd text i figured he gave up. That night i was up most of the night sick. When I woke up I had 6 missed calls and a voice mail from him. It felt good to finally be on the other end of this. So i still havent responded. Im pretty proud of myself.

My Dad.

I honestly have THE best dad EVER. He's my best buddy. He's always there for me. Last night I got one of my HORRIBLE stomach aches, it got to the point where I could hardly breathe, so I snuck into my dads room and just started sobbing, he immediately jumps out of bed and wraps his arms around me and takes me into the kitchen to find some meds. Than I started shaking horribly and he held me as tight as he could to try to calm me down, he knows the cold helps so at 11 o'clock last night my dad grabbed a jacket and basically carried me out to the front porch. He is such an incredible person. I started to relax when I got the worst stabbing pain in my stomach I have EVER felt, I'm pretty sure i started screaming. I look up at him and ask "Will you and Jarron PLEASE give me a blessing?" I think at this point he knew it was bad, I rarely ask for blessings when i'm sick. So Jarron and my dad laid there hands on my head and gave me a blessing, immediately the shaking stopped, and within an hour I was sound asleep on my dads shoulder on the couch. He walked me to bed at about one, and told me if I needed him again to go get him. Can I just say how grateful I am to have a dad and a brother that honor there priesthood, that were able to give me a priesthood blessing. I am SO blessed to have them in my life! Another thing my sweet daddy did, I was not feeling well on Valentines day, so I crashed on the couch for most of the day, my dad walks in the door after a LONG day at work with a single pink rose and a card. He walks over, sets them on the table in front of me, and says "Happy Valentines day baby girl!" I almost started crying. My dad is my hero. He does everything in his power to make everybody happy!

What A Life!

So I decided I have the BEST life ever! I have the best friends in the entire world, the best family, the best job. Its SO much fun. I am so freakin happy :) I have been at my job 1 year today. Its the best job I ever had. I am starting nursing school next year and the thought of leaving here makes me sad. Phil told me i would have to work nights as a nurse because he's not letting me quit at intermountain. I honestly considered it! I love my job and ALL the people here. I may not get along with them very well, but they are like a second family to me. We fight like brothers and sisters but we can also talk about anything. Phil is like my dad. I tell him EVERYTHING, and he still loves me no matter what. I love my job! :)

Lia Sophia Party...

So im having a lia sophia jewelry party tonight and i'm SSE (So super excited) Its gonna be a blast. I went and bought cupcakes,chips,veggie tray,and some eclairs. Its gonna be a blast! The only thing I worry about or hate really is people that DONT RSVP. Its annoying. The only people for sure coming are :Krista, Rachel,Jessica,Jaynee, Aunt Connie, and My friend Tassie. I just hate how people are like "Yea! I'd love to come!" Than when it comes down to it they think of an excuse, its like seriously just say NO! I'd rather have someone say they can't afford it or that they just aren't interested rather than just lead me to believe there gonna be there than not show up. Anyways, I will post pictures and details after the party :)

Is this real or just another crush?

What is love? I mean, don't get me wrong, I was crazy in love with Matt. And when I was with him, that was my definition of love. What I want is your definition of love. The only think I can think of to describe love is this email I received from a coworker a while back. This is what I want!

Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way.

When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toe nails any more. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth.

Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne andthey go out and smell each other.

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs.

Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings.

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is okay.

Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and daddy are likethat. They look gross when they kiss.

Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.

If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate.

Love is hugging. Love is kissing. Love is saying no.

When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't love you any more. But then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more.

There are two kinds of love: Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them.

Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it every day.

Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.

During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.

My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.

Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken.

Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.

Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.

I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.

I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her.

Love cards like Valentine's cards say stuff on them that we'd like to say ourselves, but we wouldn't be caught dead saying.

When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little starscome out of you.

Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.

You really shouldn't say I love you unless you mean it. But if you meanit, you should say it a lot. People forget.

If you have any more to add to this, please do!! I want to know what everyones definition of love its :)

30 day shred.

So Krista and I have started working out at lunch. We usually just do a simple work out dvd. Well today she brough in Jillian Micheals 30 day shred, I figure What the heck. How hard could a 20 minute workout be? Im not gonna lie, it kicked my trash. Literally! Haha its not even fast paced really. You just dont get a break. You go from push ups to weights to jumping jacks to jump roping to punching to kicking yourself in the butt to crunches than back to push ups. Its was INTENSE. Krista impresses the crap out of me. She did EVERYTHING perfectly. And she only screamed in pain twice!! We tried to walk down the stairs and our legs had about the same consistency of a bowl of jello!