There are still good people....

Well, I work at extend health, and I was having a hard time today. I didnt want to come back to work after lunch, I wanted to go home and have a good cry. Well i came back and took my first call. I answered the phone to the WONDERFUL older lady. At first I was a little bit short with her. I just wanted her to get helped and off my line. Well as I was about to transfer her, she said one more thing. Annoyed I asked what? She said I just want to let you know how much this lil old gramma loves and appreciates you.. Can i say a little prayer with you before you transfer me? I agreed and she said the most BEAUTIFUL prayer with things I needed to hear today. She testified of how much not only GOD loves me but how much this lil old lady who i've never met loves me. I started BAWLING. I thanked her and she said "I cant wait to hug you in heaven. You are forever in my heart, my adopted granddaughter." This lady touched me more then she realizes. I am SOOO grateful for this phone call. :)

Busy Busy!!

Life has been sooo crazy lately! A few weeks ago, I got a new dog. He is a chihuahua (SP) pug mix, and SUCH a mamas boy. He follows me around and sleeps with me everynight. His name is Moosey Fate. Also, I got a JOB!!! YAY! I started yesterday and i love it! Its soo much fun, I love the girls i work with. And I get to meet the boss officially today and actually be on my own on the front counter. Finally, Im going to Hawaii next week! I am soo freakin excited. I get 10 days with my hubby and family. Im pretty sure this will be the longest me and my hubby have been together without having work or anything :) Im pretty stoked about that. And SOOO grateful to my cousin Jaynee for watching Gilly and Moosey for us. Shes a lifesaver :). Well I gotta go get ready for work. Loves!

Im SUCH a slacker :)

I am such a slacker! Lets see, Whats been happening lately? I quit my job at the end of July, which has been SUCH a relief for me! But my poor hubby is stressed to the max, so the job hunting began shortly after. I've done several interviews with no luck :( So keep your fingers crossed and lets hope I can get something soon! On the plus side : 6 weeks from tomorrow I'll be on the beach in Hawaii with my family, and my sexy hubby! I cant frikkin wait. The anticipation is KILLING me!!
Sooo this week is gonna suck REALLY REALLY bad :( Nick has convention starting tomorrow meaning he leaves for work at 6 am and is lucky if hes home by 10 pm. IM gonna miss him SOOO much I have no idea what im gonna do. He'll be too busy to think about or text me. And i'll be sitting at my parents house (i hate being home alone) thinking about him, missing him :( .
I LOVE NICHOLAS EVAN WEIGHT!!

One year ♥

So this past week Nick and I celebrated one year of dating (The fourth of July) And I know now that were married it doesnt mean as much, but it means alot to me for this reason : A few weeks before my 20th birthday, I was dating a guy that I wasnt sure I should be with. I thought I loved him, and I thought maybe I could be with him. But I didnt want to settle. So I started praying. I said "God, please help me." Then I made a deal with GOD. I said "If im not married by the time Im 21 I will serve and honorable full time mission." Looking back at that I dont think there was anyway I could have done it! Then, the day before my 20th birthday Devyn and I broke up. So I thought, well this is my sign, Im supposed to serve a mission. I started reading my scriptures like crazy, and praying extremely hard to see if this was my sign. Then next day (My 20th birthday) I got a text from Nick (We hadnt met yet) and he asked me if I wanted to go for a drive with him. So we went on a drive to the same hill he proposed to me on. And we've been basically inseperable since. I remember telling Nick when we first started dating i was praying about a mission. I never mentioned the marriage part, cause I didnt wanna scare him off ;). I still plan to serve an honorable full time mission, with my eternal companion, when were old and wrinkly :) And I cant wait ♥

Happy Birthday To Me!

Yesterday was my birthday, and it was SOO awesome. On Sunday we did ice cream and cake with my family and I got cute clothes from the sisters, gift card from brandon and 100 bucks from my mommy and daddy. Then Yesterday, i had the day off, but Nick couldnt get off work ;(. So I went to my parents and played with my mommy all day :) We went shopping for a few hours, then just hung out and chatted. Then when my daddy got home he took me to get snowcones (My absolute FAVORITE!) Then Nick came to pick me up for dinner. When I got in the car there was a dozen BEAUTIFUL red roses on the passenger seat. Then we went and ate at Red Robin, and he decided not to have them sing to me (Thanks baby) and we headed home. We got there, and I said "I just wanna crash, im soo tired" He said that was fine, so I walk in the door, and my family and his parents all jumped out and yelled "Surprise" it was so awesome ♥ The house was full of candy filled balloons, crepe paper, and confetti. It was so cute :)) From there I opened another gift from nick, the first 100 episodes of spongebob, i've been wanting this for SOO long. And everyone had cake, and left. Then we went to bed, cuddled and watched spongebob for a couple hours ♥ That my friends, is the perfect birthday.

Fathers Day Pondering

I know this is late, but I just thought I would post a few of the things I love about my daddy since it was just Fathers Day.

*He always puts his kids first

*He can always make me smile

*Hes my brown eyed handsome daddy :)

*He's always doing nice things for us. A few examples of this:

Last weekend I was really sick with a cold, i couldn't talk and had a horrible cough. So at about 9 pm i hear the doorbell ring, I run downstairs and peep through the peephole and who is it? My sweet daddy carrying a snowcone. He is my superman. I love him SOO much.

Another example, on fathers day he came to our house and helped Nick install a window a/c in our bedroom so we didnt die of heat this summer. I truly have the best daddy in the world...



Also, on Fathers day I had alot of time to think... We went to Nicks parents ward, then a bbq at my parents house. At Nick parents ward, Xander ran up to Nick with a huge grin on his face, gave him a hug, said "miss you" and when we were leaving he kissed me and said "Love you most!" Its kids like him that make me not want to wait to have kids. And the way nick plays with him I know he's going to be and amazing dad. WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT! We talked about this the other day. I told him I couldnt wait to have kids,but at the same time Im not ready to grow up. I already had to grow up ALOT when I got married, I had to start paying my own bills, I got a car payment, along with Nicks bills, a house payment. I realized how truly spoiled I was! Plus like my mom always says, She wants grandkids so bad, but once you have kids, its not just for a year or two, its forever. And While im sure its the most rewarding thing in the world. im not even close to being ready...

Have you ever?

Have you ever taken a look around and wondered if you deserve half the things you have? I feel that way when I look at this picture


I would say that the surest measure of a man's maturity is the harmony, style, joy, and dignity he creates in his marriage, and the pleasure and inspiration he provides for his spouse.

-- Benjamin McLane Spock

Wedding Pictures :)

So im posting my wedding pictures on facebook. And it just makes me realize what an INCREDIBLE support group Nick and I have. We had SO many people come to the temple to support us. Even those that couldnt go to the ceremony. It meant SO much to walk out and see you there. I feel so blessed to have such amazing friends and family! I cant even describe how amazing it was to have 2/3 of my siblings there and their amazing spouses. I love them all so much. Thank goodness for eternal families :)

All Because Two People Fell In Love

Nick and I have been Married 1 month today. Married life really is the best thing ever. Everyone makes it out to be a fairytale, and although there are some struggles, id have to agree that its as close to a fairytale as I've EVER been :) Its been SO much fun getting all my stuff situated, and going through our wedding gifts. I get to decorate my own house now. Im so excited! And as for the wedding gifts, I PROMISE im sending out Thank You notes TOMORROW. Or not. Hopefully though....

I have been so blessed with some pretty amazing people in my life. i have the greatest family in the world. I love spending time with them as often as possible.
Lately, Jaynee and I have developed a wonderful relationship (friends Jane, FRIENDS) She is such an amazing example to me. She's strong, smart, brave, and beautiful! She always has a smile on her face even when you KNOW she's struggling. She is like superwoman i swear....

Since its mothers day I just wanted to tell everyone what an incredible woman my mom is. She is so strong, and perfect in everyway. She works a million hours a day, and still finds time to call or text to make sure her kids are safe (were all grown and married) and have dinner on the table for my dad. She is such an amazing example to me. She is the one person i can always turn to that will ALWAYS understand me. She is my hero. I dont think she hears it enough, but mom: I love you more than words can express and am SO grateful God put you in my life as my mother. I cant think of a better mother, a better example. We may not always get along, but at the end of the day, you are my VERY best friend in the world. I love you!

Tomorrow ♥

Tomorrow is the big day :) I am so freakin excited I cant even sit still. Last night I had the opportunity to go through the temple. It was such an amazing, and sacred experience. I felt a greater love for Nick than I have EVER felt. I had been praying all day that my Grandpa Ainsworth could be there (He passed away 6 years ago.) And when I walked in the the ordinance room, this feeling I have NEVER felt before entered my body. I heard the words "He is here" And i could feel him in the room. It was the best feeling in the world. I am SO grateful for eternal families. And forever starts tomorrow for me and Nick. I cant wait to marry my best friend. I LOVE YOU BABE!!

2 weeks!!

In two weeks, Nick and I will be sealed for time and all eternity. The thought scares me and excites me at the same time. Let me explain, the ONLY reason I'm scared is that i HATE being away from my parents. I am a HUGE home body. But I will get used to it. It will be me and him. FOREVER :). The excitement part is pretty obvious, he makes me SO happy. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world that I get to marry him and be sealed forever. I cant wait to start a little family with him. He's going to be an incredible daddy. And a great Husband. I cant wait to come home to him everyday (Or vice versa) And just be able to fall asleep in his arms every night. Its gonna be perfect. I always dream about our wedding day. And for the most part they are REALLY good dreams. Last night I dreamt about it again, and I woke up in tears because i wanted SO bad for it to be real. I cant wait for April 9th to get here so I can be his wife. Eternity is NOT long enough. I love you baby.

Recovery

I had my gall bladder out almost a week ago. Its been harder on my body than I though. Im finally going back to work tomorrow and have mixed emotions. Im bored outta my mind at home, but I dont really have full range of motion in my torso. It will be good for me to get outta the house for a while, im going stir crazy! I just have 4 little incision in my tummy. the one on the belly button definitely hurts the worst! I cant sit up in the mornings without a HORRIBLE pain. But once thats over with I feel better with just ibuprofen. I've been taking a pain pill just at night mostly to help me sleep. They seem to just make me sleep through the pain which is good. I have had such a great support system. Nick and my parents have been here all day almost everyday as well as Rachy! And people in my ward have called and visited almost everyday. It made me realize how many people really care about me :) I love my life. And I love my family and my future in laws. They are definitely some of my best friends. I cant wait to marry Nick. I got my temple recommend tonight. Its all falling into place. I also got my bridals done :) SO CUTE!!!

Results!

So in just the past month I have had the following tests done...
*Colonoscopy
*Pancreas/stomach blood tests
*Ultra Sound
*Upper Scope
*Biopsys
*Hida Scan
And I am SOO happy to say we FINALLY got some results. The purpose of the hida scan was to test my gall bladder, which is what we have been suspecting for the past 3 years or so, but couldnt get any doctor to listen long enough. So they injected me with a chemical that is supposed to cause a gall bladder attack if thats what it is. I got a little bit nauseous but it wasnt anything horrible, so I figured dang it, its not that either. That night I got REALLY sick. Then on monday I called to get my results all the nurse would say was "he'll tell you at your follow up on wednesday." So i get there Wednesday morning and he says a normal gall bladder functions at 35 percent and mine is at 1.5 percent, which means its barely releasing anything at all. So he referred me to a surgeon. We met with him yesterday and as he was reading my results he says wait, wait, wait. Your gall bladder is NOT at 1.5 percent its at NEGATIVE 1.5 percent. Which means its not releasing ANY bile at all. It just keeps getting bigger as bile produces in it. So during the test, rather than releasing the chemical, it just held it in there and got larger. So next Thursday, March 11th I am getting my gall bladder out. Im so scared, but so relieved at the same time. I wont have to live with pain EVERYDAY. I told my surgeon, "I dont know what I'd do if I woke up one morning and wasn't in pain! I think I'd freak out!"

ALSO...
Happy 8 months to my smokin hot fiance. I can't wait to start forever. We get sealed in 1 month and 5 days. And its dragging! I LOVE YOU BABE!

Valentines and stuff....

So for Valentines day, Nick got me a puppy, and I got him some tools he wanted. LOL Not really a fair trade, but its what we both wanted. :) I love him SO much. He took me to the roof then we went and saw the Joseph Smith Movie and walked around temple square. I can't even tell you how excited I am to marry him. He is so patient, and loving. He is my prince charming! I love you Nicholas Evan Weight!!!

This Is Gilly Weight. My "son" haha

Also... CONGRATULATIONS to my beautiful sister-in-law Angie. Her and Nate are expecting there first baby. I am SO excited for her. She is SO beautiful, and definitely one of my besties. She is so excited, she just glows. I can't wait to watch her little belly grow! And to be an aunt (Again.) So Congrats Angie and Nate. I love you both!!

Aren't they the perfect couple. I love these guys!!

AND... The countdown continues... As of right now the count is :

*53 Days

or

*1272 hours

or

*76320 minutes

or

*4579200 seconds

til

I get to marry my best friend!

Sick of being sick

So as most of you probably know, I've had stomach problems for SEVERAL years. This past year they have become MUCH more intense. To the point that I can't stand it without pain medication. Saturday morning at 6 I ended up in the ER on morphine. They gave me anti-nausea medication and I had an allergic reaction which caused my heart rate to go SO high it set the alarms off, and it made me freak out and yell at everybody to take me home. It was TERRIFYING! After a few hours at the hospital, they took blood and urine and tested my pancreas. Everything looked normal. I am SO sick of hearing that! Last week I had a colonoscopy "Looks good" a few years ago an upper endoscopy "looks normal" Monday night I had an ultra sound. I call today to get those results. Obviously not everything can be that good if I am in this much pain! I wish they could figure it out so I can be healthy and happy again!!

Happy Birthday Baby!! (Kinda Late)

So on January 11th Nick turned 25 years old. For his birthday, he got snowboarding clothes :) its his newest obsession and he's actually REALLY good at it. (And he looks really hot doing it. Just saying!) And my daddy helped me make him a steak dinner. Then we just lounged for a lil bit and watched a movie. Than did ice cream and cake with my family.

It seems to be a popular thing to list things about them. So since he's 25 im gonna try to think of 25 reasons I love him ;)

1. He makes me feel like the most important person in the world.

2. He has gorgeous blue eyes.

3.He has the perfect smile.

4.He smells really good.

5.He knows all my ticklish spots and always uses them when im grumpy.

6. He holds me when i'm sick.

7. He understands that I don't feel good ALOT. And he still wants to be with me.

8. He is SUCH a hard worker.

9. He's a REALLY good kisser ;)

10. He is such a caring person.

11. He drops everything for me.

12. He always has these dorky arguments with me that I love and he probably hates about who loves who more.

13. He gets along with my family.

14. He's a hardcore mama's boy!

15. He is actually pursuing his education so I can be a stay at home mom at some point!

16. He's taking less classes next semester so I can go full time.

17. He believes in me.

18. He loves me.

19. He isnt afraid to kiss me in front of his friends.

20. He always wants to show me off.

21. He is SMOKING hot!

22. He is as close to his family as I am to mine.

23. He can't wait to be a daddy.

24. He's gonna be a KILLER daddy.

25. He's perfect!

Sometimes, you just need to hear this song...

Right now I have a prayer deep within my heart.

A prayer for each of you there is a special part

That you remember who you are and Him who lives above

Please seek for Him and live His way;

You'll feel His love.

(Chorus)

Walk tall you're a daughter, a child of God.

Be strong, please remember who you are.

Try to understand, you're part of His great plan.

He's closer than you know, reach up,He'll take your hand.

Long before the time you can remember,

Our father held you in His arms so tender.

Those loving arms released you as He sent you down to earth.

He said, "My child, I love you,don't forget your great worth."

(chorus)

This life on earth we knew would not be easy.

At times we lose our way, His path we may not see.

But please remember, always, please, that you are not alone.

He'll take your hand, He loves you.

He will guide you home.

Walk tall you're a daughter, a child of God.
Be strong, please remember who you are.

Try to understand, you're part of His great plan.

He's closer than you know, reach up, He'll take your hand.

New Years Resolutions....

I thought this year I would post some of my resolutions on here, so MAYBE I'd actually do them! haha. Here we go:
1. Read the BOM
2. Stay worthy to enter the temple.
3. Go to the temple EVERY month with my Husband and our families.
4. Make Nick smile EVERYDAY.
5. Be the best Wife I can be.
6. Go to church EVERY Sunday (Were going with my parents 2 days after our wedding since we dont leave on our honeymoon til monday)
7. Save my money
8. Pay my tithing on time EVERY month.
9. Be a happier person.
10.Eat healthier.
These are my resolutions this year. Hopefully I can stay with them!

My wedding is fast approaching and I have yet to plan ANYTHING. I just want forever to start already. I can't wait to spend forever with him. It wont be long enough.