Twilight!!

So Me, Rachel, Cika, Annie, and some other chick went and saw twilight last night at 1230. At first I was hesitant cause I knew we wouldnt get home til 330 or 4 and I had to be up at 645 for work. But it was SO worth it! It was such a blast. We started out the night just me rach and casey hanging out. Which was soo much fun. Than we all went to dinner with Casey and Patchy at wingers. Than we went back to Cika's house to play sing star. It was a riot! Than at about 1145 we headed over to the theatre. Holy crap! I have never seen so many girls in my life! It was crazy. We had about 2 maybe 3 boys in our theatre. It was so crazy. Than like every 30 seconds when Edward shows up on the screen you hear 45 or so teenage girls scream! It was kind of obnoxious. But overall it was a great movie. I'd see it again. And again. And again! SO WORTH the sleepless night. Everyone at work today is calling me the walking zombie. haha!

Cute!

So last night I was having a rough night. I was just laying there with my puppy and my teddy bear thinking. Praying. And all the sudden I got a text from my daddy so my phone starts playing brown eyed girl cause thats our song. So i'm thinking its gonna be him telling me to turn off my tv and go to bed. So i shut the tv off and than I look at the text. It read "Who loves you baby?" And it honestly just made my day. I love it when he texts me. I was reading a letter he sent me one year on trek. It talks about how proud he is of what i've become. How much he loves me and how beautiful I am. I wish that even for 10 seconds I could see myself through my fathers eyes. He started the letter with "Hello my brown eyed baby" And ended it with "Love your brown eyed handsome man" I love that we have these nicknames for eachother. Its so sweet :) I honestly have the best dad on the planet! He always knows when I'm sad and he can make me laugh when I don't even feel like smiling. If I find a man half as good as my dad to marry and to be the father of my children, I will feel like the luckiest girl in the world! I love him.

Grateful.

Thanksgiving is right around the corner so I thought I'd take a minute to say what I'm grateful for :)
I am grateful for:

*Having a job in this horrible economy

*Having a family that I am sealed to forever.

*Having a sister that I see more as a best friend.

*Being able to work with all my friends EVERYDAY.

*The gospel.

*The power of prayer.

* This last one is gonna sound crazy but I am grateful for heartbreak, because as bad as it sucks, as miserable as it is, it brought me SO much closer to my mom and to Rachel. They were there for me day and night. Not to mention Krista who gets me trash talking with in seconds when she sees that I'm upset :) I have some of the most incredible people in my life. I am forever grateful for them :)

Stronger than yesterday!

I am honestly happy. I didn't think it was possible. But I am. I'm smiling again :) I know that one day I am going to find a guy worthy of me. (I know this sounds really snobby) A guy that kept himself clean so he could go to the temple. A guy that waited for me as long as i've been waiting for him. They guy that is worth my tears, but would never even dream of making me cry. The guy that points to me from across the room and tells all his buddies "Thats her. Thats the girl I want to spend the rest of my life with"

This is the guy I want:
The guy that calls me back when I hang up on him

that will kiss me in the rain

that argues over stupid stuff just so we can make up

that can make me laugh when I don't even want to smile.

that thinks he has everything in the world when he holds me in his arms.

that can prove to me that not every guy is a total jerk.

that tells me he loves me in front of his friends.

I want the guy that has worked as hard as I have to be temple worthy.

I want

Is this too much to ask for lol

More wedding pics :)

This is my brother in-law Casey. He acts like he doesn't love me sometimes! Haha He enjoys making fun of my eyebrows.
Me and my beautiful sister. My sister is WAY prettier than your sister!

Why?

Why do I try so hard to make sure everyone else is happy even if it means making myself miserable? I decided last night that I would answer when Matt called me. See if we could work things out. I even pretended to be happy for him even though it felt like a knife in my heart. I thought maybe he'd apologise for being a jerk and say he didnt want to lose our friendship. So I answer and I was being all quiet cause I was scared. And he asked what i was doing. I told him and asked what he was doing. His response was "Just laying in bed with Taush" OUCH! So I said hmm well I'll let you go then. Than he accuses me of being immature. So I said fine we'll talk. What do you want? And he started telling me if I wanted to be his friend I had to be Tausha's. So i said no. She's a backstabber. She was never a real friend. This was all before he told me he was with her and I was on speaker. I told him that I didnt understand how either one of them could do this. Especially after all the crap he talked on her. Than he hung up. So I texted him and said"Now who's immature" And he said "Yep.Have a nice life. Don't bother texting me or Taush for that matter." Why would I put myself through all this you might ask. I honestly don;t know anymore. The feelings I have for him are SO strong. I just wanted to see if he still felt the same. Apparently not. So of course I am at Rachels and I decide to call my mom because i was SO ANGRY! So I call her and just start sobbing. She didnt say I told you so. She listened. And her response was "Okay Randi, this is what were gonna do this time." I love how she said were. I know she's there to help :) "You're gonna cry your eyes out for a few days. Than your gonna write it off. Its gonna be over. Ya it might still hurt a year from now but not nearly as much as it does now. Its gonna keep hurting this bad if you keep trying to talk to him. He's a bad person!" Than she told me to come home. But honestly I just needed to be with Rachel. Can I just tell you what a strength she was to me last night. She started talking about when she was in the same situation. She told me "I can't tell you when it will stop hurting, but I can promise you that it does." Those words gave me so much strength. I don't think she realizes how much her advice means to me. The fact that she is ALWAYS there no matter what. She texted me last night til I fell asleep. It really truly helped me realize that were not just sisters anymore. Were best friends. I regret that we weren't closer when we were little. But honestly I think it helped us both to realize that when it comes down to it, family is the only thing that doesnt go away. She is such an incredible person. I can't wait to get married in the temple and have her there front and center. I also love her husband, Casey. He doesn't realize how much I look up to him and Rachel. I don't think they realize how much I love and care about them. They are my best friends. The blessing Casey gave me the other night was INCREDIBLE! The spirit was definitely there. I love them so stinking much!
I found a new quote that I put on my wall. It reads "You never realize how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you've got." This is so true! I never thought I could do it. But I didn't get much of a choice. All I can do now is pray for the strength to stand everyday. When life gets too hard to stand. Kneel. Those words are very true. Last night was a rough one. Not only because of what happened but because I decided i'm never letting it happen again. I realize its gonna be hard to trust ANY guys now. But I'm done with this. I'm moving on and I'm not turning back. There is a reason some people dont make it to our future. The past is the past. Its done. What happened happened. Do i really want to associate with these kind of people? NO. I found out who my real friends are and I dont need anybody else. I have the best friends a girl could ask for. I love them all!

Missy's wedding!

So my cousin Melisa got married on saturday. Everything went really well. My and Rachel were both in her line. Alot of very interesting things happened, first of all the wedding was supposed to start at 4 we left Marie's house at 330 and she had yet to take a shower. It was insane! Than we get there and my cousin Curtis' ex wife and ex girlfriend had been invited so they were there. So was his fiance. Talk about tense. Talk about drama! They all ended up gettin in a knock down drag out fight in the hall and Marie sent them all home before the reception. So the dance CD wasn't burnt because Curtis was supposed to burn it but he left. So my Beautiful cousin Karin and her husband Josh started working like crazy to get the CD burnt. Than the photographer kept taking pictures of my and Karin. It was hilarious. He said we both looked better than the bride so we would be the album cover. It was SO funny! I dont have my camera so I dont have pictures with me of the whole wedding but I do have some of me after I changed into my hoodie and jeans and I was still all dolled up.