One year ♥

So this past week Nick and I celebrated one year of dating (The fourth of July) And I know now that were married it doesnt mean as much, but it means alot to me for this reason : A few weeks before my 20th birthday, I was dating a guy that I wasnt sure I should be with. I thought I loved him, and I thought maybe I could be with him. But I didnt want to settle. So I started praying. I said "God, please help me." Then I made a deal with GOD. I said "If im not married by the time Im 21 I will serve and honorable full time mission." Looking back at that I dont think there was anyway I could have done it! Then, the day before my 20th birthday Devyn and I broke up. So I thought, well this is my sign, Im supposed to serve a mission. I started reading my scriptures like crazy, and praying extremely hard to see if this was my sign. Then next day (My 20th birthday) I got a text from Nick (We hadnt met yet) and he asked me if I wanted to go for a drive with him. So we went on a drive to the same hill he proposed to me on. And we've been basically inseperable since. I remember telling Nick when we first started dating i was praying about a mission. I never mentioned the marriage part, cause I didnt wanna scare him off ;). I still plan to serve an honorable full time mission, with my eternal companion, when were old and wrinkly :) And I cant wait ♥

Happy Birthday To Me!

Yesterday was my birthday, and it was SOO awesome. On Sunday we did ice cream and cake with my family and I got cute clothes from the sisters, gift card from brandon and 100 bucks from my mommy and daddy. Then Yesterday, i had the day off, but Nick couldnt get off work ;(. So I went to my parents and played with my mommy all day :) We went shopping for a few hours, then just hung out and chatted. Then when my daddy got home he took me to get snowcones (My absolute FAVORITE!) Then Nick came to pick me up for dinner. When I got in the car there was a dozen BEAUTIFUL red roses on the passenger seat. Then we went and ate at Red Robin, and he decided not to have them sing to me (Thanks baby) and we headed home. We got there, and I said "I just wanna crash, im soo tired" He said that was fine, so I walk in the door, and my family and his parents all jumped out and yelled "Surprise" it was so awesome ♥ The house was full of candy filled balloons, crepe paper, and confetti. It was so cute :)) From there I opened another gift from nick, the first 100 episodes of spongebob, i've been wanting this for SOO long. And everyone had cake, and left. Then we went to bed, cuddled and watched spongebob for a couple hours ♥ That my friends, is the perfect birthday.

Fathers Day Pondering

I know this is late, but I just thought I would post a few of the things I love about my daddy since it was just Fathers Day.

*He always puts his kids first

*He can always make me smile

*Hes my brown eyed handsome daddy :)

*He's always doing nice things for us. A few examples of this:

Last weekend I was really sick with a cold, i couldn't talk and had a horrible cough. So at about 9 pm i hear the doorbell ring, I run downstairs and peep through the peephole and who is it? My sweet daddy carrying a snowcone. He is my superman. I love him SOO much.

Another example, on fathers day he came to our house and helped Nick install a window a/c in our bedroom so we didnt die of heat this summer. I truly have the best daddy in the world...



Also, on Fathers day I had alot of time to think... We went to Nicks parents ward, then a bbq at my parents house. At Nick parents ward, Xander ran up to Nick with a huge grin on his face, gave him a hug, said "miss you" and when we were leaving he kissed me and said "Love you most!" Its kids like him that make me not want to wait to have kids. And the way nick plays with him I know he's going to be and amazing dad. WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT! We talked about this the other day. I told him I couldnt wait to have kids,but at the same time Im not ready to grow up. I already had to grow up ALOT when I got married, I had to start paying my own bills, I got a car payment, along with Nicks bills, a house payment. I realized how truly spoiled I was! Plus like my mom always says, She wants grandkids so bad, but once you have kids, its not just for a year or two, its forever. And While im sure its the most rewarding thing in the world. im not even close to being ready...

Have you ever?

Have you ever taken a look around and wondered if you deserve half the things you have? I feel that way when I look at this picture


I would say that the surest measure of a man's maturity is the harmony, style, joy, and dignity he creates in his marriage, and the pleasure and inspiration he provides for his spouse.

-- Benjamin McLane Spock

Wedding Pictures :)

So im posting my wedding pictures on facebook. And it just makes me realize what an INCREDIBLE support group Nick and I have. We had SO many people come to the temple to support us. Even those that couldnt go to the ceremony. It meant SO much to walk out and see you there. I feel so blessed to have such amazing friends and family! I cant even describe how amazing it was to have 2/3 of my siblings there and their amazing spouses. I love them all so much. Thank goodness for eternal families :)

All Because Two People Fell In Love

Nick and I have been Married 1 month today. Married life really is the best thing ever. Everyone makes it out to be a fairytale, and although there are some struggles, id have to agree that its as close to a fairytale as I've EVER been :) Its been SO much fun getting all my stuff situated, and going through our wedding gifts. I get to decorate my own house now. Im so excited! And as for the wedding gifts, I PROMISE im sending out Thank You notes TOMORROW. Or not. Hopefully though....

I have been so blessed with some pretty amazing people in my life. i have the greatest family in the world. I love spending time with them as often as possible.
Lately, Jaynee and I have developed a wonderful relationship (friends Jane, FRIENDS) She is such an amazing example to me. She's strong, smart, brave, and beautiful! She always has a smile on her face even when you KNOW she's struggling. She is like superwoman i swear....

Since its mothers day I just wanted to tell everyone what an incredible woman my mom is. She is so strong, and perfect in everyway. She works a million hours a day, and still finds time to call or text to make sure her kids are safe (were all grown and married) and have dinner on the table for my dad. She is such an amazing example to me. She is the one person i can always turn to that will ALWAYS understand me. She is my hero. I dont think she hears it enough, but mom: I love you more than words can express and am SO grateful God put you in my life as my mother. I cant think of a better mother, a better example. We may not always get along, but at the end of the day, you are my VERY best friend in the world. I love you!

Tomorrow ♥

Tomorrow is the big day :) I am so freakin excited I cant even sit still. Last night I had the opportunity to go through the temple. It was such an amazing, and sacred experience. I felt a greater love for Nick than I have EVER felt. I had been praying all day that my Grandpa Ainsworth could be there (He passed away 6 years ago.) And when I walked in the the ordinance room, this feeling I have NEVER felt before entered my body. I heard the words "He is here" And i could feel him in the room. It was the best feeling in the world. I am SO grateful for eternal families. And forever starts tomorrow for me and Nick. I cant wait to marry my best friend. I LOVE YOU BABE!!