Near Death Experience ;)

So the other night my dad and I had 2 wedding receptions to go to. One of them, Tashina's, was down town, it was POURING rain. We were heading home from that one and we were pulling off the 2100 south freeway on to bangerter, all the sudden my dad started saying "Oh crap oh crap oh crap!" I had no idea what was going on, he was driving, so I thought he was gonna puke or something lol. Than all of the sudden we lost control, I have NO Idea how we miss the cement barrier, or how we didnt roll down the hill. All I remember is closing my eyes, curling up into a ball, and SCREAMING! I was terrified, my heart was pounding. When we came to a stop we were facing the wrong direction in a field. Luckily no cars were behind us or it could've been UGLY. Someone is definitely looking out for me. I have been SO blessed. I told my dad someone was looking out for us. We could've very easily totalled his truck. I think I cried most the way home lol. My poor daddy will never live it down :)

If at first you don't succeed...

Maybe failing is your thing?
I've been thinking about my life alot lately. And some of the thoughts I have depress and scare the Shiz outta me.
I'm gonna be 20 years old next week, as if this thought alone isn't scary enough, what have I accomplished in 20 years? I BARELY graduated, I've made my parents lives much harder than the probably needed to be. I've made SO many big mistakes with my life. Sometimes i've even wondered if maybe I've strayed too far?
Now on to the positive thinking part :)
I did graduate high school
Im pursuing a degree in nursing
I've NEVER heard my parents tell me they are disappointed in me. I've worked SO hard to never hear these words!
I've found a best friend in my sister.
I've held my job for a year and a half(and going strong)
I'm an active member of the ONLY true church. I love my Calling AND the Gospel. I have no idea where I'd be without it.
I'm REALLY happy.
I've developed MUCH closer relationships with my family.
*Lady
*Rachel
*Casey
These 3 are my Rocks. They are the 3 people in my life that I can trust 110% I love them SO much!

Count your many blessings...

So I recently broke up with my boyfriend and at first I was totally okay with it. Than when I found out that he was gonna start dating someone else, it HURT. I was devestated. I didn't want him to date other people. I was talking to him this morning because He is one of my best friends, i never wanna lose him. And he told me I had so much to be grateful for. I thought "Yea, the guy im freaking crazy about is dating another girl, my life rocks, NOT" then he listed a few things and it hit me HARD. I have an AWESOME family, some pretty sweet friends, not to mention i have the gospel in my life. Thats all i need. I dont need to have a boyfriend to be happy.
Can I just tell you how much I love my cousin Jaynee. She is such a beautiful and strong girl. Any guy that gets a chance to get within 10 feet of her is lucky. Me and Jaynee havent always been as close as we are today, we used to dislike eachother, but once we started hanging out, she quickly became my best friend. She's the one person I know will NEVER turn her back on me. She knows EXACTLY what im going through, and even when Im a hideous beast, she still tolerates me. She is such a beautiful girl. She has been through SO much and still has a smile on her face. She is so happy, and fun to be around, she can make anybody smile. She always knows when im having a bad day and she texts me something funny. I love her so stinking much and am VERY grateful to have her in my life.

The things we do for fun!

So yesterday we had the family dinner as usual, than Casey had a meeting so he left. Rachel decided to stay and hang out for a bit with Mollie. Well we all decided at about 5:30, that we wanted to take the dogs for a walk. Rachel grabbed Mollie and her leash. Char grabbed Queenie and her leash, I grabbed Sassy and her leash, Jarron grabbed......

Gracie and her leash!

We got ALOT of stares. Our bishop actually pulled over to the side of the road to see it. It was HILARIOUS. A few of my primary kids were outside. They were TERRIFIED of my poodle but ran right up to the goat and started feeding her grass and jumping all over her. It was HILARIOUS!

Song of the week.

Its called then, its by Brad Paisley. And it fits my life, right now im living the first verse. Who knows where it could go from here.

I remember, trying not to stare the night that I first met you
You had me mezmorized
And three weeks later,
in the front porch light
taking forty-five minutes
to kiss goodnight
I hadn't told you yet
but I thought I loved you then

Chorus:
And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way
I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then

And i remember, taking you back to right where I first met you,
You were so surprised
There were people around,
but I didn't care
Got down on one knee right there once again,
I thought I loved you then

And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then

I could just see you,
with a baby on the way
And I could just see you,
when your hair is turning gray
What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more
But I've said that before

And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in
And I'll look at you and say
And I thought I loved you then
And I thought I loved you then...

BEST SONG EVER!!
Also my new favorite quote is: You block your dreams when you let your fear grow stronger than your faith. This hit me SO hard today. It is my dream to become a nurse. But the thought of all the schooling and how time consuming and stressful it will be is my biggest fear. I have let fear overcome faith. Im going to nursing school. Im conquering my fears!

Our new pet.... GRACIE

So for a while we have thought about getting this pet, my dad and Jarron have wanted one for SO long. My mom kept putting it of and putting it off. I thought she finally won the battle. But when I got home from work Friday Jarron said "Look outside" And this, my friends, is what was outside. A GOAT! "Whatcha lookin at scared cat!"

JARR! Please hold her so i can get a picture, cause Im not gonna lie, Im terrified of Gracie!

You cant see this one too well cause I was hiding in the safe zone (In the house) but the goat was chasing Jarron and Char around the yard like a dog. It was the CUTEST thing I've ever seen. After this I decided MAYBE i'd be friends with the Goat. MAYBE.

some things just don't matter...

Tonight while at girls night with my mom rach and char I got the feeling that when my dad and jarron got home I needed to ask for a priesthood blessing. For strength and guidance. I wasn't sure why but I know better than to ignore a prompting. Well my dad gave me a blessing and for the first time ever I cried through most of it. Most of it is personal but one line I will never forget is : somethings just don't matter. Me and john got in an argument because I told him getting married in the temple is a HUGE deal to me and he said he hated religion. So the temple just doesn't matter to him. I love the church. I have the best family ever. Jarron sent me a text tonight that said : the church is true. I started bawling. I felt the spirit tell me its true.. Rachel is my rock. She knows everything and I love her. I hot tubbed with jarron and char and when I got out I had a text from jenna saying she loved me. She knew I needed to hear it. Than my daddy held me and told me itd be ok. Everything will be ok. My response? Sometimes I just need to hear that from the big guy. I just need to hear he loves me and that he will never leave me. And tonight for the first time, I KNOW!